Book: A New Earth

By Eckhart Tolle published in 2005


With the success of The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle continues to present readers with his insightful look into humanity’s ego-based thinking and provides practical teachings for waking up to a new, enlightened mind-set.

Describing to us the nature of this shift in consciousness, Tolle writes in detail how our current ego-based state of consciousness operates. Then simply using practical terms he leads us into this new consciousness. We will come to experience who we truly are and to live and breathe freely.

Unconscious people, (many remain unconscious, trapped in their egos throughout their lives), will quickly tell you who they are: their name, their occupation, their personal history, the shape or state of their body, and whatever else they identify with. But do they really know themselves? Knowing yourself goes far deeper than the adoption of a set of ideas or beliefs. Knowing yourself deeply has nothing to do with whatever ideas are floating around in your mind. Knowing yourself is to be rooted in Being, instead of lost in your mind.

“This book’s main purpose is not to add new information or beliefs to your mind or to try to convince you of anything, but to bring about a shift in consciousness, that is to say, to awaken. In that sense, this book is not “interesting.” Interesting means you can keep your distance, play around with ideas and concepts in your mind, agree or disagree. This book is about you. It will change your state of consciousness or it will be meaningless. It can only awaken those who are ready.”

There is much to absorb in this book by Tolle. That’s why I feel the more I read it the more I benefit from it and remember more of it. Here is a powerful thought to ponder:

“If the thought of lack – whether it be money, recognition, or love – has become part of who you think you are, you will always experience lack. Rather than acknowledge the good that is already in your life, all you see is lack.”

My father has always been the most negative person I know and after reading this I thought about how much it described him. He grew up with nothing and always struggled for everything he wanted. He suffered a stroke in his fifties while working. The stroke actually changed him for the better because it made him physically and mentally slow down. Then he appreciated life and family. I also forget sometimes to appreciate what I have. When I do become aware of my blessings it always makes me smile.

Nail Biting Remedy


My history for biting my finger nails goes back 40 years.  Forever biting my nails and trying to stop. Trying different methods that didn’t work which equals the amount of times I felt like a failure. There are only 365 days in 1 year so literally I tried thousands of times to stop biting my nails and failed thousands of times.

I would find myself biting my nails when I was anxious, excited, hungry or mad. At times I would catch myself biting them for no reason other than they felt ruff which my biting caused to begin with. If I cleaned with bleach or got gasoline on them, I’d bite them because they would overly dry out and aggravate me.

I became more conscious of how my hands and fingers looked when I became interested in girls. I would hide my hands by putting them behind my back or in my pockets. If that was unavoidable I would simply curl my fingers under to avoid any looks. I hated how my fingers looked. I thought they looked gross and when I saw others who had the same habit I hated my habit even more.

It wasn’t until I read Bob Proctor’s book The Art of Living that I figured out where I was going wrong. I was always thinking how much I don’t like biting my nails. So I kept biting them. From Proctor’s book I devised that it’s where your thoughts go that lead you. I wanted nice looking hands because I liked nice looking hands. I focused on that and nothing else. It has been over 2 years since I quit and they still look nice.

This can work for you. If you have to print a picture of someone’s hands and tape it to your mirror to help then do it. It will remind you of what your goal is. The key is to focus on what you want and not on what you don’t want. I hope my method works for you.

My White Light Experience

Friday – May 13, 1977 

My father fell asleep while driving with me in the passenger seat when I was 6 years old. Our car ran off the road and flipped upside down in a small creek. The next thing I remember though, was the brightest light as if I were engulfed in it. I felt calm and not scared. It didn’t last long until I slowly started seeing the things around me like the car I had been in, a lake near the car and a bush. I felt gravitational forces pulling my body down and realized I was sitting on a road with my lower left leg gone. I remember seeing flesh and my veins hanging out of my leg. It scared me so I screamed for my father. He gets out of the car and I see him grab my leg from the bush then he picks me up.

My father’s boss just happened to be driving by that night in a new, yellow Cadillac. They picked us up and drove to the hospital. Next thing I remember were the doctors and nurses moving so fast around me it made me feel I was running out of time. No one was looking at me just objectively trying to fix me. I remember wanting to ask if I were going to be ok but too weak to say the words.

I was to transfer to a bigger hospital because the small one couldn’t give me the medical care I needed. I was also told that it took 3 ambulances to get me to that bigger hospital because of one flat tire and one ambulance broke down. I don’t remember anything else until much later when I woke up from the coma. I had been in coma for 2 weeks.

I spent 3 months in the hospital. I have good and bad memories of being there. The nurses were amazing….especially Sharon who became my regular nurse. I met a lot of kids with traumatic injuries. Maybe I’ll write about my experiences in the children’s hospital in the future.

Most people will ask me how did I lose my leg and some will ask what do I remember. I was in my late thirties when I was telling someone new about my childhood car accident when it dawned on me about the light. I always assumed I hallucinated about the lake and street light. I had never thought of my memories in any other way until then. The area where my accident took place was nowhere near a street lamp or a lake. That wasn’t a street lamp I was under. This was in the country on a country road. This was my white light experience.


Many critics want to define what people experience or reason with an explanation. They will justify what I saw by saying that was traumatic injury to my brain. I don’t have a medical explanation for what I experienced. I feel it was Devine intervention. I do know for a fact..I should have bled to death and many doctors said it was a miracle I lived.

I only shared my personal experience because I know others have experienced this too.

Feeling Lost During Divorce?



I was 40 years old when going through divorce. During that time I felt completely lost and my world was spinning out of control. I read many books on self-enlightenment and used meditation to center and calm my thoughts. It’s been 7 years since my divorce was final and I keep reading, meditating and making more goals. It helped me focus so much during divorce, why stop?

I was content in my marriage until it went tits up. I would come home from work to 3 very active kids and a wife I adored. I didn’t want more from life because I had it all. I didn’t want a job promotion, a new car or a new home. I was happy. Then things fell apart and for a long time during my divorce I felt empty with no direction in my life. I was going through the motions of going to work but I wasn’t fully there. My job was repetitive where I felt like an empty shell showing up to earn my paycheck. I wasn’t drinking or doing anything to alter my thinking just stuck in a lifeless state of being.

Before our divorce was final we decided to move back to Florida so I took some time off to search for places to live. Driving around in Florida alone for a full day looking at homes and apartments sounds nice but I was just going through the motions. I was just driving around in that empty shell of mine. After just one day, I had enough and got some food and went back to the hotel room. It was that evening in my hotel room I started wondering what I was doing. I started trying to define what I was going through. I didn’t want to go look for a place to live and couldn’t figure out what it was that I actually wanted. I felt completely separate from myself as if I were losing control of my reality. I was losing my mind.

“The quest for wholeness can never begin on the external level. It is always an inside job.” -Dr. Shefali Tsabary

A memory came to mind of my roommate in college meditating on his bed. I had never been around anyone doing this before so I had the opportunity to ask him questions about it and try it. He told me it was about centering yourself and your thoughts. I tried it and liked it but didn’t exactly understand it. So here I was in the hotel room feeling extremely lost in life with no direction so I meditated. It took a while to get centered with all the hotel noises of doors closing and elevator bells ringing but then my thoughts started to settle down. My thoughts started to focus only on my breathing. I felt calm and then a feeling of happiness as if to be regaining some control of my life. Then an impulsive thought that defined exactly what I had been feeling, my life was spinning out of control. By defining exactly what I was feeling and what I was going through is where I found direction. It gave me a sense of purpose and I knew what I needed to do next. Stop resisting what I couldn’t change and make the best of it. Hoping somewhere along the way I’ll find happiness and my kids will be less affected by this divorce.

Opening my eyes I now had direction, to not waste the trip to Florida and actually find a place to live. I succeeded with a couple of options with different plans. It felt so good to have direction that it relieved a lot of depression that was brought on by divorce. I had the choice of 2 different apartments. Preferred apartment A but if price wasn’t right and no availability then apartment B. I wrote down my plans on paper so I knew what needed to happen next. I was already approved to transfer to Florida with my employer so I didn’t have to think about that. My plans consisted of searching the web for comparing prices for a moving truck, blankets, boxes and tape. Then canceling phone contracts and cable television services to multiple address changes. I hadn’t realized that my self-confidence had been lost until gaining it back. Getting my plan together and acting on it became my therapy for divorce. It became my focus.

Since the divorce and moving to Florida I have many times over felt lost in my life. Each time I meditate I feel centered as a person and focus on the current moment. I feel as though I’m 47 and I don’t know what I want to do when I grow up. I do enjoy writing but fail to see where I could make enough money doing it. So I’ll stick to what I know and try to find work in my field.

In the meantime, I continue to read books on self-enlightenment, mindfulness and meditations. I like learning about different ways of thinking about life. What works and what doesn’t. People such as Eckhart Tolle and Michael Singer have written books that feel like the truth because I identify with many things they have written.

If you feel as though your world is spinning out of control then try meditating. Exercise also helps clear the mental cloud. Try reading some books and focusing on learning a new way of dealing with life. It was Albert Einstein who said,  “No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.”

Book: The Power Of Now

Released in 1997 by Eckhart Tolle.

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I will keep this book so I can re-read it. So much to benefit from I can’t remember it all.

The back side of this book reads: To make the journey into The Power of Now we will need to leave our analytical mind and its false created self, the ego, behind. From the very first page of this extraordinary book, we move rapidly into a significantly higher altitude where we breathe a lighter air. We become connected to the indestructible essence of our Being, “the eternal, ever-present One Life beyond the myriad forms of life that are subject to birth and death.” Although the journey is challenging, Eckhart Tolle uses simple language and an easy question-and-answer format to guide us.

This book is so much more than the title yet the title sums it up nicely. The book delves into our thinking patterns and the way it has shaped our thinking today. Then using processes suggested for a different way of thinking that leads to a happier life.

Oprah Winfrey calls The Power of Now the most important book she’s ever chosen for her book club as it explains how to free yourself from the tyranny of the past, live more fully in the present, and come to the calm, joyful place where intuition, creativity, and wisdom live and breathe. Oprah summed up this book the best.

An excerpt from Chapter Two about the pain body (whatever causes you suffering): Focus attention on the feeling inside you. Know that it is the pain-body. Accept that it is there. Don’t think about it –don’t let the feeling turn into thinking. Don’t judge or analyze. Don’t make an identity for yourself out of it. Stay present, and continue to be the observer of what is happening inside you. This is the power of the Now, the power of your own conscience presence.

The book doesn’t end there but gives you an idea of what a lot of this book is about and how it is written. At times this book is a page-turner and at other times it isn’t. Well worth the $15 or buy it in used condition for less.

Negativity. If you would like less negative thoughts in your mind and to improve your thought processes, read The Power of Now and it will start you in the right direction.






Book: The Four Agreements

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By Don Miguel Ruiz

A practical Guide to personal freedom. Self summary – In The Four Agreements, don Miguel Ruiz reveals the source of self-limiting beliefs that rob us of joy and create needless suffering. Based on ancient Toltec wisdom, this advice offers powerful code of conduct that can rapidly transform our lives to a new experience of freedom, true happiness and love.

I liked this book and will keep it for my son to read.

The author’s family taught him the Toltec wisdom. His mother a curandera (healer) and his grandfather a nagual (shaman). A shaman by definition is a person regarded as having access to, and influence in, the world of good and evil spirits. Ruiz shares his family’s simple but very profound teaching of four simple truths.

  1. Be impeccable with your words. Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
  2. Don’t take anything personal. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be a victim of needless suffering.
  3. Don’t make assumptions. Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you want. Talk as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama.
  4. Always do your best. You will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse and regret.

I like small books with simple truths. They are easier to remember and understand. With the first rule I find myself listening more and talking less. The second rule I quit letting other people’s opinion of me matter so much. The third rule, I stopped thinking that I know exactly what is going on in any given situation. I’m more open to other possibilities. The last rule is the most rewarding I think. Every job I’ve ever done my best it led to better jobs where the pay was better and more satisfying.

My son is too young to understand this book and wouldn’t take the time to read it. When the time is right and hopefully before he is out of high school, I will ask him to read it. I believe it leads to a life of integrity, prosperity and less regret.

To learn more about The Toltec Four Agreements




Book: The Untethered Soul


The Untethered Soul by Michael A. Singer

For years I have been exploring the subject of self-awareness, enlightenment and/or mindfulness as it is called. Being aware of the present moment and more aware of my thoughts. Too often my thoughts are of the past or future. Rarely am I thinking about NOW. Right here and NOW.

Years ago I noticed my thoughts drifting  more frequently when talking with my sister. While she would be trying to engage a real conversation with me my mind would be thinking about dinner or what is my young son doing right now? Then I met Ralph Anderson who was an extremely successful engineer and businessman. He gave me some Wayne Dyer CDs to listen to and said they had helped him with his life and business for many years. Since Mr. Anderson said Dyer was good I believed him. Over the years my enlightenment has broadened to many different books with the most recent being The Untethered Soul.

The Review: I do recommend this book. On the back of this book says “You’ll discover what you can do to free yourself from the habitual thoughts and emotions that limit your consciousness.  This book opens the door to a life of self-realization and happiness.” This is exactly what it does.

Chapter 1 Title is “The Voice Inside Your Head”. This talks about the mental dialogue we all have inside our heads. The author approaches this subject as a way of simplifying it. I would have compulsive thoughts and never thought of them as being a problem. After reading this I have a lot less compulsive thoughts and more awareness of the current moment. With this mindfulness, I am more engaged in conversations with others and my environment. I notice my surroundings more; people, places and movements. It reminds me of people walking around with their faces pointed towards their cell phones. You see this everywhere and even with my own son, Evan. Now I think, how important is it to stay on your phones? Social media would say very important because they make money when you do stay tuned in. I say it’s bad because you aren’t experiencing what is going on around you.

This book goes on to discuss many other beneficial ideas such as meditation and how it helps with spiritual balance as much as it helps with both physical and emotional balance as well.

It also encourages us to expand our comfort zone (that’s what I call it). Quote “It is not life’s events that are causing problems or stress. It is your resistance to life’s events that is causing this experience.” More happiness is experienced when we stop trying to control life’s events, people or outcomes. We always try our best but if things don’t work out according to plan, accept it. C’est la vie…that’s life. Your comfort zone will expand. Grow more as a person and accept/tolerate life as it comes and goes.

This is a small book packed full of great wisdom for life. Deepak Chopra deemed “Read this book carefully and you will get more than a glimpse of eternity.”

Singer’s website The Untethered Soul

Book: My Days with Princess Grace


I am an admirer of the lovely Princess Grace of Monaco, (aka Grace Kelly). I wanted to know more about her life and in particular her life in Monaco. What was she like as Princess I wondered. The book My Days with Princess Grace was written from the perspective of her close American friend Joan Dale and comes with 35 pages of personal photographs of her life with Grace.

I loved the book. Joan Dale uses letters that she wrote to her parents as a timeline during her friendship with Grace. What sold me on the book was that shortly before Princess Grace passed away, Joan accompanied her and her family on 2 week cruise to Iceland.

April 12, 1957 Joan Dale and her husband met the Prince and Princess. Joan’s husband, Martin, was a U.S. official Acting Consul in Nice. Grace had been married almost one year. Prince Rainier was a business man and planned for the future of Monaco and recruited Martin Dale to help attract businesses. They were very successful and became close friends. It was during this time that Princess Grace became friends with Martin Dale’s wife, Joan. Grace didn’t have many American friends in Monaco and welcomed a friend in Joan.

This book describes the 25 year friendship between Princess Grace and Joan Dale. Joan kept all the little notes and things Princess Grace wrote to her as anyone would have. I personally would keep those things in a vault safe from fire and theft. I liked reading everyday life tidbits about Grace. The book left me wanting to know more which is good. The book mentions a plum whip dessert that Grace made herself but was that her favorite? I would like to read a book of favorites written by her children. This book shows pictures of Grace reading and mentions that she traveled with a Shakespeare book of Sonnets. Now I’m curious about Shakespeare.

I don’t recall any biographies approved by Princess Grace but this book mentions a writer by the name of Gant Gaither who stayed at Rocagel (home away from home for the Princess and family). Gaither wrote a book about Grace called Princess of Monaco in 1957. Since he stayed at her personal home, I’ll assume he had their permission to write the book which I am now reading.


Book’s website: Princess Grace of Monaco

Need ideas making prosthetic limbs for those less fortunate

I welcome ideas

I am a BK (below knee) amputee. I have access to custom made prosthetics in the USA but wonder what other people do in other countries where there aren’t dedicated prosthesis fabricators to make them. My last prosthetic leg cost $14,000 and I can’t even wear it. Made by Hanger and when I asked them to recast it, (make a new mold), they said no I waited too long and now they won’t do it. If I need a casting, I’ll need a prescription for another new prosthesis. So I’ve done nothing because I don’t have that kind of money but that’s a different story. I refuse pity and charity but welcome ideas!

I know there are volunteer groups that go all over the world  to help others and I see that as a way for these same people to help those who may not be mobile because of limb loss. If this is possible, I would like to figure out a way these same volunteers to take a kit of some kind and help these people.

The KIT:

I envision a small box that contains everything they need to fit one amputee. Before they leave they could watch a YouTube training video on how to use the kit. I think of ways the amputee they are helping to be included in this process so they can make repairs once the volunteers leave. If the amputee sees how it is made, then maybe their ideas will improve upon ours. The kits would have to be low cost but I’m thinking less than $50 for everything they would need with instructions. That’s the goal anyway.

Making the mold:

The first steps in making the customer mold is use plaster and wrap the stump in it until it dries. When the mold is removed you have an impression of the shape of the stump. Sounds easy but my prosthesist always marked my stump where I felt pain as to include relief areas in the molding for the final prosthesis. Maybe a marker could be used? After the plaster dries (could mud or clay be used?), what would fill it to make the stump molding? Only thing I can think of is the foam insulation in a can. It’s about $7 and could fit in the box. But can people transport it on planes? I don’t know.

As for the rest:

As to what would be used for the shell, I don’t know because my prosthetics use carbon fiber weaves. Super strong and light weight but how would people use that in other countries?

I hope there are some people who read this that have seen different materials used. What did they use before carbon fiber? Wood? Would there be an interest from any prosthesists organizations to come up with a cheaper solution for those in need? I don’t think I will get much help because it hurts their wallets.

I would appreciate any feedback anyone has. There are people in every country who can’t afford one or simply needs a replacement and I would love for there to be an alternative way that was cheap and effective.

  • Marker $2
  • Plaster rolls $10 (guessing)
  • Foam spray $7
  • donated used boxes $0

$19 but so far to go into the unknown.

The Handicap Question for Online Job Applications

The Job Application Process

The very end of every online job application that I have filled out in the last 20 months includes a whole page of…are you handicapped? Check yes or no? There is a box that includes reasons you may be considered handicapped:

  • Cancer
  • Deaf
  • Blind
  • Austism
  • Epilepsy
  • Diabetes
  • Cerebral Palsy
  • Schizophrenia
  • Muscular dystrophy
  • Bipolar disorder
  • Major depression
  • MS = Multiple sclerosis
  • Missing limbs
  • PTSD = Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
  • Obsessive compulsive disorder
  • Wheelchair bound
  • Intellectual disability (previously called mental retardation)

So if one of these conditions describes us, we are supposed to be honest and check yes.  Do yourself a huge favor and lie! This is the only lie I NOW make because I can’t even get an in-person interview with ANY possible future employer. No one has been interested. I live near one of the largest cities in Florida where there are 2 main hospital groups,  they own most of the hospitals within 2 hours of travel. There have been so many BIOMED positions posted and I have applied for every one. In 20 months I have received one phone interview.

I consulted my sister who said stop checking the handicapped box. So I stopped checking it as of 10 months ago. Problem is after you LOG IN to websites and apply for any jobs, you can not un-check the handicapped box. You can change your race or veteran status but not the handicap option. It isn’t asked again.

So I called the Human Resources Department of both hospitals. Each phone call was strangely the same. I talked to a representative and told them I needed to un-check the handicapped box and they very quickly said that doesn’t have any bearing on my application and that they do not discriminate. I explained that I have 20 years of experience and haven’t even gotten an interview so if they would please let me un-check that box I would appreciate it. They explained that they can’t make that change. I wanted to ask, “can’t or won’t?” but didn’t want to ruin what minuscule chance I might have at employment in the future.

I don’t see my chances getting much better. I have no voice or anyone to listen to me. I have no say in the matter if they will interview me or hire me. No one to complain to except a possible lawyer that can’t prove I’ve been discriminated against. My one lawyer would be up against several dozen of the most expensive assholes making sure nothing gets changed. The only thing I can do is voice my frustration on here. To say it’s not fair!


I have worked in the medical device repair industry for 20 years. I am missing my left lower leg (car wreck at 6 years old). This doesn’t impede my job, not entirely. Sometimes it may make me tired more quickly than other days but this is not often or frequent. I have worked on the floor repairing OR tables because there was problems with the hydraulics. I have worked using ladders to repair OR lights. The references I can provide of former coworkers is enough evidence that I’m good at what I do. Given the chance at an interview I could encourage the hiring manager to reach out to the people I’ve worked with and ask them what kind of employee I was. I’ve never been a bad employee. I never would have thought that I would have a problem with getting employment. All because of a car wreck when I was 6 years old? No, all because I checked yes for handicapped.